BE▲T.

Sue.

2012-02-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

Had lunch with Sue Ann on Monday- updating each other with things. And then, she gave me this! She said she saw this and it instantly reminded her of me, for my love for dreamcatchers. I absolutely love it although I hardly wear accessories. The very thought of her gesture already surprised me.

We used to write letters, telling how much we loved each other lol.

My first best friend in Standard 1. 13 years and counting. :')

Renegade.

2012-02-20T01:23:00.003+08:00

I was checking my weight a few days ago, &found that I weighed 38kg which is sorta massive as my normal weight is 42-43kg.

Because I had constant diarrhea (6 days straight and having to go poop every 2 hours, my lord) and loss of appetite, I noticed feeling lighter than usual (which felt weird lah, considering I always feel heavy every single day).

I can say I felt happy for a little while being "light", but not for the pain I went through. I'm now 39-40kg though cause I've been eating non-stop lol.

That, is all.

2012-02-18T16:18:00.000+08:00

Hey there, Valentine.

2012-02-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

It's sad that this might be our last Valentine's together considering how you'll be leaving in a few months time for 2 years. We don't know for sure what will happen, but all we care about is right now.

To my boyfriend and bestfriend, Happy Valentine's Day. I love you. (:

Mamii, don't go.

2012-02-11T06:42:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of her.

And as I held her hand, I knew it was a dream.

I told her, "Please don't wake me up. Because once I do, you'd be gone. Don't wake me up too quick." I held her hand even tighter. But as I did that, I slowly couldn't feel her anymore. I felt her fade.

And the next thing I knew, I woke up. She was gone.

Colours.

2012-02-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

I actually can't wait for college (or should I say uni?) to begin again.
Not for the assignments though, more for the company and productivity. I've been slacking so much even Patrick Star does more things than me. And I think I have a slight fascination with pens. ._. Been going back to college to accompany Luke, and I have to say that I do miss walking around the campus.

But I do love that I have nothing to do as well. Shall make this worth it by doing nothing. :D

Terrible Things

2012-02-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

By far, one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
When I read the lyrics and listen to the song at the same time, I actually hear the sadness and I'm instantly reminded of my mother's love for my dad.

Beautiful.

Disneyland.

2012-01-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

By far one of the best days of the trip!

The first Disneyland I've ever been to was the one in Japan and I didn't understand a single word. However, the rides in Disneyland, LA disappointed me quite a bit as the lines were super crazy ass long but the rides itself were so short. But the weather was awesome as usual and I had a great time riding most of the roller coasters. ;D

Peeing Butt.

2012-01-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Here's a decent picture before I go into disgustingness.

I had one of the roughest sleep, and woke up at 6:30am to find that I was having diarrhea. Suffered for an hour and headed back to sleep. Thought it would've stopped but woke up to endless shit. It was so bad that I had to cancel plans with Luke because it just wouldn't stop! Best decision made today, cause it really didn't stop, even up to now.

The amount of times I go to the bathroom just to release has doubled, or maybe tripled, and I'm still in need of going. Because everything went out, I had a flat tummy the entire day and that's quite nice lah. It's like, peeing through your ass and it stinks lololol MYLORD, I'm disgusting.

This has to be the worst post I've ever done. I'm sorry. T_T

Grand Canyon

2012-01-15T02:08:00.000+08:00

Couldn't see shit that day.

THIS ELK attacked one of the people on tour lolololol.

Went over to Grand Canyon, but couldn't see the Grand Canyon. -.- I was freezing my butt off, I swear I just wanted to go back to the bus for some heat. But I love snow. They're soft, squishy and cold. ;D Stayed over at a lodge that day, and now I know how it feels like to stay in one. Not bad for a lodge, but I didn't know we were staying in one so, I brought my big luggage along &had to ask for help to carry up the stairs. T_T

Grand Canyon the next day! Purdyy.

Went over to Grand Canyon again in hopes to get a better view and it was all good! Froze my butt off again but slightly warmer than the day before. ;D Oh, and this was the day my sister decided to throw a snowball directly at my face. I tasted dirty snow, thanks.

Las Vegas (Part 2).

2012-01-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

According to the tour guide, this is part of the old Las Vegas. Got some history behind it, but as usual, I didn't listen HAH. Went to a chocolate factory after that but there was nothing much to take pictures of. I was too busy enjoying the cold outside. ;D After that, we headed to Grand Canyon which is my second favourite place of the whole trip despite the freezing cold (it was -10°C!), but still lovely. (;

Las Vegas (Part 1).

2012-01-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

Don't remember the names of places again, All I remember is Caesar's Palace, heh. But Las Vegas is beautiful especially at night &my camera sucks at taking pictures at night. Editing them didn't do shit to make it better too, sigh. T_T

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

On New Year's Eve, I didn't know what the plan was. Dumbfounded, I didn't know Luke had prepared all these surprises; I thought he was just being his usual last minuteself so I just chilled abit &didn't give a fuck lol.

In the end, we ate dinner with Wengonn&Suwei, chilled at the clubhouse with champagne whilst seeing Luke with a rose (being stupid, my face was just ._. which eventually turned into XD), and watched fireworks at Curve lololol been a long time since I've been there for countdowns, like 4 years! Came back to my place to shower cause of all the foam from the spray cans and slept &chilled until 7am.

I have to say it was a great way to end a year.

Happy New Year, everybody. (:

On the way to Fresno.

2011-12-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

If you look closely, it's actually a mountain of sea lions.

I honestly forgot what the names of the places are. Was too focused on the scenery that I didn't hear anything the tour guide was saying. Tried googling but nope. Super beautiful; the pictures don't do justice. The weather was awesome too. Cold, but with a little bit of warmth. Ahhh, bliss!

San Francisco.

2011-12-27T23:22:00.003+08:00

Warning: My camera isn't the best, so pictures may (or may not) look heavily edited. &they aren't the best quality either.

Civic Center

Victorian houses

Twin Peaks

San Fransisco bridge

Palace of Fine Arts

Le fuzzy caterpillar.

Bubba Gump!

Lombard street - world's crookedest road.

Cruise.

Civic Center, Victorian houses, Twin Peaks, San Fransisco bridge, Palace of Fine Arts, Bubba Gump for lunchies, Lombard street, and a cruise that overlooks the city and its history.
San Fransisco was a pretty good one- beautiful and spectacular views. &I actually listened to the entire history throughout the cruise while I saw others falling asleep due to jet lag. I, on the other hand, was already homesick. ;o

It was a chilly day and I was only wearing 2 layers. Was about to die. From then on, I packed on without giving a shit on how fat I looked, HEH. More to come!

Christmas, with love &gratefulness.

2011-12-25T02:59:00.000+08:00

Although all plans failed today (24/12), I'm glad I got to spend the start of Christmas with Lukeyhhh at the stroke of 12am. :)

Came back from the States to find out that my youngest sister had straight A's for PMR, brother graduated from his degree, other sister got accepted into Melbourne U &I did considerably okay for my Semester 2. It was incredibly tough having to deal with both the loss of a mother and our hectic schedules, so we vouched to work as hard as we could for her &we did it. :)

Merry Christmas, all. Have a blessed one. ♥

Americaaaa.

2011-12-11T13:10:00.000+08:00

Taken in San Francisco. ;D

Currently in Fresno. 13 more days till i get home!

Leaving.

2011-12-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'll be leaving for 2 weeks to a place far, far, faaar away. Part of me wants to go &finally do something productive, but part of me can't take stand the fact of leaving Luke for 2 weeks. Still used to seeing him frequently so gimme a break! Won't be able to text too cause it'll cost a bombby bomb. :'(

But I'll be back on the 22nd anyway. Time flies like *ZOOOM!*. Ok, toodles!

Le penguin.

2011-12-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

When a male penguin falls in love with a female penguin, he searches the entire beach to find the perfect pebble &when he does, he waddles over to the female penguin and presents it at her feet. Kind'f like a proposal.

Mm, penguins. :')

(Source: did-you-kno.tumblr.com)

Trouble Maker.

2011-12-02T01:57:00.003+08:00

It's finally out! So freaking catchy. &ohmylord, Hyuna's gorgeous. :'D

Those Who Slay Together, Stay Together.

2011-11-30T01:40:00.002+08:00

"Beyond the door there's peace, I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven."

Been busy buying stuff for the family trip. Finally something productive &to take our minds off things.
But it kills me knowing she won't be here or be in pictures anymore. I miss her everyday. Please take good care of her, You. &I'll move on, but I'll never get over it.

BFF.

2011-11-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

Was cleaning up my lappie &almost forgot I had this, haha. Adowajeeble (or maybe not) candid pikchaz of Lukey.

Semester break started and it's nearly a week now. I've been cooped up at home- eating like crazy &watching Vampire Diaries, but still too afraid to watch it too quick or else I'd have to wait every week for a new episode in Season 3. I might have the patience for that, but maybe not either. Been wanting to watch New Girl for a really long time now and Luke's pestering me to watch Misfits, but I need to do something more productive rather than just sit and be a fatty.

Ooh, Vampire Diaries now! Baaaai.

Roses.

2011-11-20T22:28:00.001+08:00

I used to think that flowers were the worst presents to give to a person. Sure they're pretty, but they die &don't last long. But I guess that changed when I had that liberated feeling of receiving 3 red roses, though that was last year.

Ahh, memories. :')

Sunshine.

2011-11-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Bored out of our minds while waiting so we played with the webcam, messing around with the effects, but ended up with only one decent picture together. I transformed it into 12, heh.

Click for cheesy post.

The Constant.

2011-11-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

Meet Wallace. :)

I'm almost done with my 2nd semester. And then it's hello, 3 months break!

I promised myself to only watch Vampire Diaries after I get all my assignments done &I'm pretty proud of myself for keeping that. ;D (Hi, mommy, I'm trying to make you proud too.)

Btw, my banner's retarded and won't centralise despite how much I tinker with the codes. Le sigh. :'(

Just the Olsen sisters.

2011-11-12T15:08:00.001+08:00

MK&A

Elizabeth Olsen

OHMAIGAT, so gorgeous! ;D

Loved MK&A since I was 4. And now I love their little sister too. Sighhh. ;D

Pictures from Olsens Anonymous.

Dare You To Move.

2011-11-06T08:58:00.001+08:00

Lovely. :)

--

So, in the past month,

Fell down, scraped my knee pretty bad. It's still in the process of healing. T_T
Had a gigantic pimple. Not so much gigantic now, but it's still there. :(
Had an ulcer at the tip of my tongue. It's the worst place of all. It has become smaller, though.

And then, on Thursday, I wore my skinnies and found that I was scratching like mad. Stripped myself and found that I had hives all over my legs. Thought (and prayed) that it would go away in the morning BUT IT DIDN'T. Woke up in the middle of the night to find myself scratching and stopped myself. T_T

So, I went to get meds the next day and thankfully the itch stopped but it was still (and currently is) crazy red. Worst of all, I don't have any long pants/skirt/anything that are loose to cover my legs so, as of now, my blotchy fat legs are exposed for the world to see.

But none of that can compare to Thailand experiencing the flood. Oh, and it's Movember. My heart goes out to all of you. :)

Le Wedding of the Century

2011-11-03T20:07:00.002+08:00

One of those days

2011-10-29T13:31:00.003+08:00

Taken while I was doing assignment under the blanket in Luke's shirt at his place while he played Dota and completely ignored me. ;D

Dear MoM,

2011-10-25T21:45:00.001+08:00

"God saw you were getting tired, and a cure was not meant to be. So he put his arms around you, and whispered.. come with me.

With the tearful eyes we watched you, as we saw you pass away. Although we love you deeply, we could not make you stay. Your golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke our hearts to prove to us... He only takes the best."

It's been almost a month since you left.

I still pray every night before I go to bed so that He would take good care of you.
&I thank Him for having you as a mom; for giving me you.

Honestly, words aren't enough to express how I feel. All I know is I'm caught in between hurt and relief. Hurt, because she has really left and relief, because she no longer has to suffer.

I hope I make you proud someday, mommy.

Sing for Me.

2011-10-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

One of the toughest weeks I've been through lately. And doing assignments as a distraction to keep my mind off things is already weird enough.

I got Luke a belt for his birthday. He liked it, at least I think he does. :) Thankgod I saved up for it, if not I would've been broke as fuck by now. But now, I can't go for Jayesslee concert hurhurrr. Someone who is ever so kind enough, please send some tickets to me. T_T

Your 19th, our 1st.

2011-10-11T00:00:00.236+08:00

1 year ago:
"It was supposed to be your day."
"It's my day, and I decided to share my day with you."

Happy 19th &happy 1 year, love.
♥

Oh well, oh well.

2011-10-09T21:28:00.004+08:00

Love the graphics, song, everything. :)

I miss her.

Our fighter.

2011-10-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

I hope He's taking good care of you.
You're in a much safer and peaceful place now. You no longer have to suffer anymore.
It may take a while for me to get used to this, but I will.

You'll always be our one and only mommy. The best one we'll ever have.
You were such a fighter. We watched you battle your fears and you'll always remain a winner no matter what.
Now you've eternal peace, and we'll meet you when our times come too.
I miss you so much, every single day. I love you always.

28th September 2011

Teddy.

2011-09-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

After getting done with all my Assignment 1s for every subject, the Assignment 2s decided to pile up. &I'm sure it'll be the same for the Assignment 3s. Sigh, back to busy weeks ahead. :(

Oh, missed Arthur's Day too. Went for a movie before that then over to Al-Madina to meet up with Mark, so we went to the event quite late (at about 9pm?). The jam was massive and we hadn't even reached the entrance. We were already in the car for nearly 45minutes and I could see how Luke was so frustrated.

"Okay, at 9:45pm, you're gonna call your friend and ask if it's jam inside and if it's packed."
Not even reaching halfway yet, he already said, "Okay! We're gonna U-turn this bitch!"

So, ended up at Luke's place watching True Blood and KO-ed right after. Mm, maybe it wasn't so bad in skipping Arthur's after all. (:

Story of my life

2011-09-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

Johnnie Walker - "Step Inside The Black Circuit Singapore"

2011-09-17T21:26:00.001+08:00

I've read about JOHNNIE WALKER® events, and I have to say that they sound really awesome from what I've heard. They look so glam s'more!

I have never, in my life, been to a Johnnie Walker event because (I know) I'm not that lucky enough to get the invites. Fine, I'm never lucky enough to get anything, le sigh. :'( But it is back once again, this year. And I won't miss this opportunity!

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If you're interested in joining the contest, you may go here.

Keep walking, and remember, never drink and drive. (;

Shake Tramp.

2011-09-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

Let's just say the highlights of my past week were:

Walked around KL with Luke. Forgot what it felt like to take public transportation.
Drove alone for the very first time, though I've been wanting to for months but scared shitless &my dad has issues. *achievement!
Went over to Jared's for his open house, although we've been to his place millions of times.
Made very slow progress in my work.
Played Sims Social everyday. I need a social life.
Period came &I felt like curling into a ball everywhere I go.

Oh, and this song is addictive.

I'm really not a good blogger. :(

Amanda's Birthday @ La Yosh

2011-08-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

This post is way overdue.

Amanda and I have quite a history. We started out as enemies when we were 14. Misunderstanding okeh, lol. We patched things up.

I remember talking to her on Friendster, sending testimonials. Oh god, good times. And 5 years later, we're close collegemates.

On 14/8, the plan was:
Jared's -> LaYosh -> Home. We had class the next day, sooo.. mhm.

At Jared's:

At LaYosh:

Birthday girl. (;

That's about all, really. I hope you enjoyed your presents, Ming. Teehee!

꺼져 줄게 잘 살아

2011-08-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

It's back to shittyass assignments, sigh. I see no hopes for a D(istinction).

How My Skin Healed.

2011-08-20T13:46:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer: I don't receive anything for mentioning any of these products. I just need the world to know and, hopefully, help someone out. :)

So, I was looking into the mirror this morning, and I saw how my skin has improved.

No, I'm not fortunate enough to have clear skin. Last year, I had to go through thousands of zits, blemishes, redness, etc due to lack of sleep and being too exposed to smoke (Luke -.-). AND I didn't eat the right food.

Note: I don't use make up. Thus, my horrible face was exposed for the world to see. I wanted to scrape my face.

I tried everything - different cleansers, moisturizers, etc - but nothing worked. In fact, it got worse. My mum told me that using too many different products at once would do your skin more harm than good. So, I stopped for awhile.

After about 2 months, Luke told me to get Cetaphil as it helped with clearing his skin. I read reviews on it first before purchasing it. Although it had mixed comments, I still went ahead and bought it.

It exactly isn't the cheapest drugstore cleanser (RM47+ for one bottle, ~RM80 for two) but it really did help. It wasn't an instant result but my skin slowly improved. And one bottle lasts reeeally long too.

That was also the time I realised my skin type has changed to sensitive. So, now every product I buy must have the 'Sensitive' label on it. If not, my face would be a pizza.

And so, my face is now.. still red but much, much, MUCH better than before. Thanks to le boyfie.

Completely irrelevant picture, but there's my face.

For a cheaper alternative, I'd recommend Simple. Different texture, but it works the same. ;D

SpiritHood.

2011-08-19T02:27:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA

So, I had a really bad day today. Or rather, yesterday.
Okay, well, not really. The 'bad day' only started after college when Emilie dropped me off at Luke's house and I was stuck outside for 30mins under the blazing sun. Spammed his doorbell &called his phone(s) but it was all fucked up. I'm sure his grandma hates me now cause Idk wtf she was saying. Called practically everybody to see if I could tumpang their houses, but they were all out. Ended up following Emilie to the clinic and back to college. I've troubled her so much that I felt my apologies weren't enough, hurhurr LORD. T_T

But on a completely unrelated note,

Someone, get me a Husky SpiritHood. Please?

SO PURDYYYYYYYY

I need sleep.

2011-08-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

I've noticed that I haven't been sleeping much these past few days. I can't recall a day when I had the right amount of sleep. At average for this week, I can say that I've only had 4 hours of sleep, including weekends. I can feel the college phase coming back again.

Whenever I go over to Luke's place/he comes over to mine, I'd definitely fall asleep within 10 minutes of lying down. And I'd only wake up hours later to notice that I've been a pig, possibly finding myself drooling too. -.- Luke even had to wake me up at 6:45am and 7am in the last two days he came over, because I ko-ed on my couch from watching tv. Sigh.

&now, I've to read up on my readings shit when all I want to do is sleep. T_T

Moves Like Jagger.

2011-08-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

4/8/2011:
From college, to Sunway Pyramid, to Luke's, to Sunway Pyramid (again), to back home. I'm already beginning to feel like I'm not going to score well for this semester.

Ching broke the tail. I'm still wondering how she did it. -.-

Babyguuuuuuurl.

Floralness, by coincidence.

And that's, like, all. Because I'm too lazy for shit. I fail as a blogger, sigh.

If I Die Young.

2011-08-06T14:13:00.003+08:00

Can't stop replaying.
Their voices are like *melts*. And they are like, *swoons*. I had a bad morning and my subscriptions page showed that they uploaded a new video and I straight away had to play it. They never fail me.

Okeh, just gonna be in my own world now.

My Snoopy doodles

2011-08-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

I doodle little crappy random things when I'm bored.
But this time, I decided to do one on Snoopy. So I googled for it, and doodled away. I think these have been the best doodles I've ever done. ._. I'm not addicted to the cartoon or anything. I don't even know what Snoopy does. All I know is that he's a dog who's best friends with a little yellow bird.

But, why Snoopy?

HEHEHEHE

Not bad, right? For a person who can't draw for shit, I feel like Picasso.

Dr Feel Good.

2011-08-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

I've heard this for quite awhile. Not only are they fucking stunning, but the song's freaking addictive. I guess it's the background music that really caught me. &their vocals are like, whoa, compared to others like SNSD.

May be my second favourite Korean girl group. 2NE1 still beats all. (;

We are the makers of music, and dreamers of dreams.

2011-07-31T18:46:00.002+08:00

Ever since .. recently, I've always been skeptical about friendship.
I've had so many different circle of friends in the past that everybody I was once close to was my 'best friend'. But to me, friends come and go, more than boyfriends do. Sometimes I start to wonder, am I really that bad of a friend? I've never really blamed the other, because I'm always the one who's being left for someone better. But not to the point where I'd bawl my eyes out for losing a friend. I guess I got used to the whole leaving thing &started not to care too much cause I'm through with getting hurt.

I've always thought that people can only share a bond if they have similar interest(s). But, ohmylord, I was wrong. Sure it'd be a plus point, but it's highly unlikely to find a same group of people with similar likes. Even if you could, they would have different standpoints. You see, I met this bunch in college and we are all completely different people. Arts, fashion, design, music, dance, etc and the very fact that we clicked right away- you just know they're special.

Sure, we all have friends of our own outside of the campus grounds, but these people take a huge space in your heart. *cheesy moment ahem* Sometimes, they are somewhat an inspiration to me. I guess one thing that attracted me most to them was the way they never put themselves first before the people around them. Whenever we have our problems, we'd always be there for one another. They're the most understanding people I know. Sure, we're bitches for gossiping like faggots, but daz cuz we special liddat. (:

I could go on and on, about how amazing these people are but I shall stop here.
Friendships like these are hard to find, considering how I've only found mine after 18 years.

--

On a completely unrelated note,

I love tumblr.
Go sign up for one to see some awesomeness &maybeee, you could follow me too teehees. (;

Hello.

2011-07-30T23:39:00.004+08:00

Decided to delete all my posts, because I couldn't take how stupid my previous posts looked/sounded and how bigass the pictures were. &clearly, I wasn't going to go through all that hassle to resize the pictures one-by-one. So, why not just delete them all?

I have not updated in a month- although it was my holidays.
Well, that's because, I have absolutely nothing interesting in my life. Or even if I do have, it'd be something personal. I wouldn't say that this has been the best month of my life, because my mind was mixed up with various emotions at the same time, but, definitely, one that I would remember.
(Yes, Luke & I are still pretty much intact, in case you're wondering.)

College starts next week, le sigh. Back to stress, again. Hopefully I'll blog more then.